HE’S NOT BROKEN
A Mother’s Journey to Acceptance
Things happen to a mother when her child is diagnosed with something. It’s like she becomes the pilot of an airplane that is headed for the Bermuda Triangle – a strange and unknown dimension that thrusts her into this whole chaotic world devoid of normalcy – whatever that is. I don’t care what anyone tells you, when you find out your child has a condition or disorder, it’s devastating. It changes things inside of you.
When Jacob was diagnosed with Tourette’s Syndrome (TS), I went into immediate panic mode. Did I give this to him? Was it my fault? What did I do wrong? With these thoughts reeling through my mind, I began to slowly disappear into my son’s diagnosis, and it consumed my every waking, and sometimes sleeping moments. I searched for answers, cures, solutions – anything to take this away from him. Anything to fix him.
Then something started to happen. I began to really look at Jacob and I noticed that his TS didn’t bother him. It didn’t stop him from being a “normal” kid. Even Nicholas, our youngest, didn’t seem to notice Jacob was different. So why did it bother me so much? Once I started paying attention to how life really was for Jacob and not how I perceived it to be, once I started accepting things the way they really were, life for Jacob, and for all of us began to change.